CROWELL’S WAR ON CANCER
“Cancer cannot steal my joy, rob me of hope, or destroy my love for life and people.”
These past six years have been some of the best years of my life. As I walked out of Inland Imaging after the CAT scan, I was overwhelmed with the idea of how many sick people there are….in my brief visit, the office was filled with patients both young and old. Business was good, but not so good for the customer.
In church, the pastor asked for prayer for a 3 year old beginning chemo this week. As he prayed, I found myself saying, “Lord, give me this little girls cancer, I can handle it, she can’t.”
Today is bone scan day. Not a fun prospect. Popping out of bed at 6:30am was not as easy today.
Where can I find the resources to win the moment, so I can win the minute, so I can win the hour, so I can win one more day? This was foremost on my mind.
For me, a cup of coffee and choosing a place I call the Secret Garden Sacred Place is paramount. It is not always the same place each day.
Today, I settled in a cozy place where a picture of Jennifer was directly in front of me. This photo is 44 years old. On the shelf beneath this smiling miracle are Jennifer’s three Ferch daughters; Natalya Alexis, Ariana Alexis and Isabella Alexis.
To the right, is an 18 year old photo of an “all world” beautiful picture of Susie cuddled cheek to cheek with one year old Natalya. This brought sunshine to my soul.
Hope filled me, my cup “runneth over.” Surely, goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Beautiful girls have been one of God’s most precious gifts to our world. We must protect and honor them. This morning, I re-lived many memories. Our Jennifer has been my source of hope for a new and better tomorrow.
Isabella declared at age six, five years ago, “Poppa, you have to live long enough to see my first baby born, but not my second.” We all erupted into laughter.
We all face some form of cancer. It may be depression, physical pain, loss of a loved one. The list is endless. Fact is, life is not for sissies.
Today, I will be like the Roman soldier St Paul used as a metaphor in the 6th chapter of Ephesians; Put on the full armor of God.
As I got dressed today, I thought for sure my red NBC t-shirt would represent the red badge of courage, the blue jeans; true blue character.
The joy of Lord is my strength. If God be for us, who can stand against us?
Let’s win the moment.